Start of Something New. New Year, New Life.

Last year was by far, the most eventful year of my life. So many things have happened. Good, Bad, Dreadful, but nevertheless, I’m still thankful to God, with his help I was able to survive my 2014.

I lost someone that’s so special to me, that fact alone is enough to make my 2014 a hurtful year. Until now everything was so clear, like it all happened yesterday, the pain is still fresh, every time I hear the word “daddy” I'm finding myself on the verge of tears, it’s like an automatic reaction to that word. I know that everything will never be the same again; we will always feel incomplete, like there’s something missing. I know he’s up there watching us, laughing at our silliness, shaking his head at our stupidity, smiling when we’re happy, frowning when we’re sad and if there’s one thing that I totally regret, it’s the fact that I wasn’t able to express my love and gratitude for him, when we can still talk to him, when he’s still with us, I think I never make him feel that I love him and that I’m thankful for everything he has given me and my family, that regret has bound me to an anchor that keeps on pulling me under. We just can’t let go. I know there’s nothing to worry about; he is with God now, probably eating his favorite food, doing the things he love. Everything happens for a reason && things will never be perfect in life. All good things, will come to an end.  We just miss him, we will forever miss him, and we will forever love him.

Never Again

Don't you hate it when you're trying really hard 

to forget about someone but they keep crawling 

back into your life?

I'm starting to think that there are more assholes than normal guys in this planet but the funny thing is, they always end up crossing my peaceful path, I don't know if it's pure accident or fate but seriously,WTH?  

   I can’t say the words that I wanted and needed to say in front of his face so I’ll just write this blog post. I have to let it out. I don’t care if he reads this or not, but either way I know he won’t be bothered.

There are people who come into your life just to strengthen you, so you can move on without them. They are supposed to be part of your memory, not your destiny.

Quit playing games dear. I’m okay now.  Please do not take my happiness again.  Please not again.

Do you ever think of me, when you lie? Lie down in your bed, your bed of lies.

Everything has changed.