God, I love him! 

"Everybody has an addiction, mine just happens to be you."

"You are the first and last thing on my mind each and every day"

" I was told not to hurt the heart of whom I love so much, but when I was so busy taking care of that heart, I didn't noticed that my own heart was bleeding. "

Love hurts so much

"I'm scared of losing you, but you're not even mine"

"I'm gonna smile like nothing's wrong, pretend like everything's all right, act like it's all okay, even though inside it really hurts."

"Most women get hurt because they put emotions before common sense"

"You kissed my forehead once. Now I can't forget about you..."

Smitten ............ :)

You will never know the value of what you have until you lose it.

"If I cross your mind just know that i'm yours ..."

...the best part of me has always been you, it'll always be you.

Old habits die hard ... I never learn.

“There is something magical about losing 

yourself in a world that doesn't exist”

Fading Away

We swing between burning out,

fading away

and getting worn out with time.

It used to be mad love now we’ve got bad blood. 

I can’t pretend that I’m happy cause you know I am not, I can’t pretend that I still want this cause you know what the truth is, I can’t pretend that everything is fine, because pretending is, and will never be my thing. I am hurting as much as you are, I badly want to end this, I want to cut the ropes but I don’t have the courage to cut it, I can’t stand the fact that I’m the one causing this drama but from day one you know how honest I am, you know how transparent I am, the spark is gone, the love we shared is starting to fade away, we are both bleeding and we are both losing this battle. 

Slowly fading away; slipping out of my grasp, out of my hand … out of my heart.

Blinded by Love

 “Love is not blind but it leads to blindness.” 

― Auliq Ice

When you’re in love, you become stupid, you become dumb, you do strange things, you become less vulnerable to pain, you set aside your own beliefs; your own principles in life and you put the person you love at the center of your universe. It’s not a bad thing to fall in love, the thing is … You fall but the wrong person catches you …

I know it’s wrong from the very beginning but I don’t strain myself about it, the only thing that matters to me, is the two of us, just the two of us, me and him, nothing else && no one else. When I’m with him everything becomes a blur, except him, he is the only thing that’s clear. The complications, the people that might get hurt, even my own feelings, it’s all hazy, I set it all aside. I just want him, I want us to last, even if it’s the most impossible thing on earth, I can’t stop myself from wanting him, even if it’s insurmountable I can’t stop myself from imagining a future with him. 

Law of Attraction

Your Lips? I kiss that. Your body? I hug that. My smile? You cause that. Your heart? I want that.

at·trac·tion/əˈtrakSH(ə)n/

noun

refers to a quality that cause an interest or desire in something or someone.

Have you ever felt that magnetic force that tends to draw you to that single person? I’m finding myself getting fervently attracted to someone that is off limits. How, when, where and why it started is something I can’t put across, it just happened, to my surprise it happened. The bizarre thing is that, he has all the qualities that I hate. He makes fun of me, like always. Most of the time, he’s drunk, if not all haha and I hate that. He’s like an alien living from another planet, I don’t get his humor, saying he’s weird would be the understatement of the year. I never get any compliments from him, nasty && awful things instead, but every time he do that I can’t fucking wipe the smile off my face. The attraction is undeniable, yet undefinable at the same time, there’s no coherent reason why I like him. One day, I just woke up smiling just by thinking about him. I woke up hoping he’s there the moment I open my eyes, it happened so fast I might be getting a whiplash, I’m screwed! Big time screwed … *facepalm.

"You've slipped under my skin, invaded my blood and seized my heart"

There's something about him that turns my insides into mush. - dgt

A feeling... but it's everything.

The funny thing is that, even in my dreams you're still an asshole. - dgt

Better

Maybe there’s a universe where I’m the right person for you. Where I adore every nice thing you did for me without starting to resent you. A universe where you actually end up with someone who appreciates you. Where no one becomes a doormat. Where both of us can shed our baggage and curiosity and issues. A universe where we’re happy without wondering if that happiness is some messed-up game ready to topple at the slightest quiver. A universe where we’re comfortable and sure. Where I don’t second guess everything and I’m not afraid of commitment and of the future and of love. Maybe there’s a universe without all the noise in my head and the pride that makes me so fiercely independent and the coldness in my heart that I can turn on and off like a security fence.

Start of Something New. New Year, New Life.

Last year was by far, the most eventful year of my life. So many things have happened. Good, Bad, Dreadful, but nevertheless, I’m still thankful to God, with his help I was able to survive my 2014.

I lost someone that’s so special to me, that fact alone is enough to make my 2014 a hurtful year. Until now everything was so clear, like it all happened yesterday, the pain is still fresh, every time I hear the word “daddy” I'm finding myself on the verge of tears, it’s like an automatic reaction to that word. I know that everything will never be the same again; we will always feel incomplete, like there’s something missing. I know he’s up there watching us, laughing at our silliness, shaking his head at our stupidity, smiling when we’re happy, frowning when we’re sad and if there’s one thing that I totally regret, it’s the fact that I wasn’t able to express my love and gratitude for him, when we can still talk to him, when he’s still with us, I think I never make him feel that I love him and that I’m thankful for everything he has given me and my family, that regret has bound me to an anchor that keeps on pulling me under. We just can’t let go. I know there’s nothing to worry about; he is with God now, probably eating his favorite food, doing the things he love. Everything happens for a reason && things will never be perfect in life. All good things, will come to an end.  We just miss him, we will forever miss him, and we will forever love him.